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Chapter 5 - A Broken Mask

Discharge came at midnight. Dr. Warren refused to let me walk out of the hospital on my own, and with my pride worn down to the bone, I finally conceded to leaving in Elias’s car—on the strict condition that he drive me straight to my apartment and leave immediately.

He didn't drive his sports car. He arrived in a heavy, black SUV, driving it himself without a chauffeur. In the back seat sat Sophie, sound asleep against a velvet pillow, her purple-casted arm resting across her chest like a little shield.

The sight of her softened the bitter anger that had kept me fortified for two days.

“She wouldn't stay with the nanny,” Elias said quietly, keeping his eyes on the rain-slicked road. His knuckles were white against the leather steering wheel. “She woke up crying, asking if the doctor was going to fix her daddy’s heart like she fixed her arm.”

I swallowed hard, looking out the passenger window at the passing city lights. “Children see too much.”

“Children see what adults are too cowardly to admit,” he replied.

The silence that settled between us wasn't hostile anymore; it was heavy with the weight of things that had been buried too deep for too long.

When he pulled up in front of my brownstone, he didn't put the car in park immediately. He sat with his hands on the wheel, the engine idling with a low, steady rumble.

“Adelaide,” he said softly. “The night you left… the night you asked me if I loved you.”

My chest seized. I didn't want to hear this. I had spent seven months convincing myself that his silence had been an answer.

“Don't, Elias,” I said, reaching for the door handle.

“Listen to me,” he demanded, though his tone was pleading, not commanding. He turned in his seat, catching my sleeve. “Please. Just listen to me once, and if you tell me to walk away after, I will. I swear to God, I will.”

I froze, my hand on the cold latch, waiting.

“My father married four times,” Elias whispered, his voice trembling with an old, festering trauma. “Every marriage was a contract. Every child was a contingency plan. When my mother died, he didn't come to the funeral; he was closing a deal in London. He taught me that love was a systemic vulnerability—a point of failure that enemies could exploit. When my brother died in that car crash, leaving Sophie behind… I watched my father try to put her in a boarding school in Switzerland at three years old because she was ‘inefficient.’”

A sharp ache bloomed behind my eyes. I knew parts of this, but Elias had never spoken of his father’s cruelty with such raw, unvarnished detail.

“I took Sophie,” Elias continued, his jaw tightening. “I fought my father in private arbitration. I threatened to resign and crash the stock if he didn't give me legal custody of her. I swore to myself that I would protect her. But to protect her, I had to become the monster my father was. I had to become ruthless, unfeeling, untouchable.”

He looked at me, his gray eyes shining in the dim light of the dashboard.

“Then you walked into my life,” he said, his voice breaking. “You were covered in blood from an ER shift, eating cheap noodles on a park bench, laughing at some stupid joke on your phone. You were completely real. You didn't care who I was. And for three years, every time I looked at you, I felt the armor cracking. I loved you so much, Adelaide, that it terrified me. Because if I loved you, I couldn't be the bastard I needed to be to keep Sophie safe from the sharks.”

“So you pushed me away?” I cried, tears spilling over again. “You chose the sharks over me?”

“I thought if you stayed, they would tear you apart!” he said, his voice rising in desperate agony. “Victoria was digging into your background. My father’s old allies were looking for weaknesses. When you asked me if I loved you, the truth was screaming in my throat! I loved you so much I couldn't breathe! But I looked at Sophie, sleeping in the next room, and I thought… if I admit this, if I build a family, I will lose everything when they come for me. I told myself you would be safer without me.”

“And look at me, Elias!” I shouted, gesturing wildly to my swollen belly and the rundown apartment building outside the window. “Look how safe I am! Working myself to exhaustion, nearly fainting on a trauma floor, carrying your child alone in the dark! You didn't protect me! You just abandoned me to fight a different kind of war by myself!”

From the back seat, a small, frightened voice broke through our storm.

“Daddy?”

We both froze.

Sophie was sitting up, rubbing her sleepy eyes, looking between us with wide, troubled pupils. She looked at her father’s tear-stained face, then at mine.

“Are you fighting because of me?” she asked, her chin trembling.

“No, sweetheart,” Elias said instantly, his voice cracking as he reached back to touch her knee. “No, Sophie. Never because of you. Daddy just… Daddy made a very bad mistake a long time ago, and he’s trying to say he’s sorry.”

Sophie looked at me, her innocent eyes cutting straight through the scar tissue around my heart.

“Is the pretty doctor going to come inside?” she asked. “Daddy’s house is really big and empty. It’s quiet all the time. Can she come home with us?”

I looked at the little girl, then looked at Elias, whose eyes were filled with such profound, unadulterated longing that it made my breath hitch.

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“Not tonight, Sophie,” I said gently, offering her a trembling smile. “Not tonight. But… your daddy can walk me to my door.”

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