Chapter 8 - The Empty Apartment

By the time I drove back to Capitol Hill, the sun was completely swallowed by the heavy Seattle overcast, and a cold drizzle had turned into a steady downpour.
The apartment was dark.
I pushed the door open, expecting to find her packing her bags, or perhaps already gone.
Instead, Lily was sitting on the floor of the living room, leaning against the sofa, with a mug of tea cooling on the coffee table in front of her. Her suitcases were zipped and sitting by the front door.
She didn't look up as I closed the door behind me.
“I called a cab for six o'clock,” she said quietly.
“Lily, please,” I said, walking over and kneeling on the floor a few feet away from her. “Let me explain. Not the corporate side—not the valuation or the IPO. Let me explain why I didn't tell you.”
She turned her head slowly, looking at me with eyes that held no anger left, only a profound, exhausting sadness.
“When we met three years ago, Noah, I was working two jobs at a bookstore and struggling to pay my student loans,” she said softly. “You were living in this tiny apartment, wearing a hoodie that had a hole in the sleeve, eating ramen three nights a week.”
“I was running the company out of a garage then,” I said. “We hadn't closed our seed round yet. Most of that time was real, Lily.”
“Was it?” she asked, a bitter smile touching her lips. “Because while I was stressing over whether we could afford to go out for Italian on our anniversary, you had millions of dollars sitting in a restricted equity account that you could have cashed out at any second.”
“If I had told you, everything would have changed,” I said, my voice cracking slightly. “People treat you differently when they know how much you're worth. You stop being a person and start becoming a walking balance sheet. I wanted someone who loved *me*—not the company, not the bank account, not the title.”
“And you thought I was the kind of person who only loved money?” she asked sharply, her voice rising.
“No! Never!” I reached out, taking her hand. She didn't pull away, but her hand felt cold and lifeless in mine. “I thought you were the only real thing in a world full of people who only cared about what I could build for them.”
“Then why didn't you trust me?” she whispered, a single tear cutting a clean path down her cheek. “Trust isn't just about not lying, Noah. Trust is about letting someone see your flaws, your power, your fears. You didn't trust me with your success. And because of that, you made me feel like an outsider in my own relationship.”
She pulled her hand gently out of mine, stood up, and walked over to the door where her suitcases waited.
“The cab is here,” she said, looking out the window as a yellow sedan pulled up to the curb.
I didn't stop her.
May you like
I watched her walk out the door, the click of the lock sounding like the final execution of a sentence I had written for myself.
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